Today has been hugely disappointing. Having built my hopes up that the medication was starting to work through tracking my pain and seeing a small reduction, this morning the pain was off the scale. I was in so much pain, I could hardly breathe.
By 10am I was back in bed, clutching a hot water bottle to my left side, crying in frustration and pain.
It is hard to see how I can ever hope to get my life back. Every morning is about pain.
I know that I am fortunate, and that there are many people who would give anything to have pain that only strikes for part of a given day, but for me, it seems like an insurmountable climb.
It is also hard to find any enthusiasm for how I look. I am putting on weight (not moving much and comfort eating is not a great weight loss technique) and I can barely muster enough care to even put my contact lenses in.
I'm going to leave it there for today. Reading about how rubbish I feel is not entertaining for anyone!
Sorry to moan......tomorrow might be better. Fingers crossed.
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